My life thus far...

2010-05-11T11:00:00.002-07:00

Saturday night I am pretty sure that D came to bed with us but Sunday he did not. Silly him. Last night he went to game night. I went to bed without him but couldn't sleep. I sent him a text message and he came home so I fell asleep with him. I'm not sure if it counts or not. I think I'll give it to him. hehe

I am working on a new diaper bag. The one I got at my baby shower was so cool and I loved it but it fell apart. I have been told that they don't make bags to last that they make them so that they will tear and rip apart so you have to buy more. Rude!

Baby is sleeping so I am going to see if I can finish what I started last night! :D

By the grace of God...

2010-05-08T10:32:00.002-07:00

Somehow by the grace of God last night D came to bed with us. We even cuddled until his back started to hurt. :D It was very nice. I didn't even ask him to he just decided he wanted to sleep next to me. It made my heart very happy.

Baby has been playing with a rattle for a few days now. I'm not sure she has figured it out yet but it is so much fun for me to watch her try.

Someone is in need of a nap and the other need a shower. Time to swaddle a baby!

2010-05-07T23:45:00.002-07:00

Last night Dan went to bed with us. I even got a really nice back rub. We cuddled and all was well.

I am almost positive that there won't be a repeat of that tonight though. He has had a strange day and will probably be "de-stressing". I put that in quotes because from my perspective he is only getting himself more worked up. I hate it. He gets so frustrated and angry when he plays these games, but he says he enjoys them. Who am I to judge?

It has been a long day...I think it is time for E and I to go to bed.

Le sigh

2010-05-06T12:00:00.002-07:00

So the night before last Dan came to bed with us but last night he stayed up late. He really needs to get his but in bed earlier. Luckily he won't be having to work so early anymore soon. The girls will be done with school for a while and will not need him to cover the front. It is very cool.

I am looking forward to going to MN at the end of the month. Unfortunately we will be moving at that same time so things will be hectic.

Oh that's right. We are moving again. This time to my parent's vacant house. We are fortunate that we can use their furniture though. haha

I have blog to read, books to finish, blanket to crochet and a cute little baby who wants to be cuddled.

-Have a great day-

It's tough waking up.

2010-05-04T14:00:00.003-07:00

I don't know how I forgot to mention this last night or any other night for that matter but Saturday morning Evelynn rolled over for the first time...and her second third and fourth. It was so wonderful. My heart filled with joy and I just squealed. To make it even better both Dan and I got to watch it happen. He just happened to be looking away from his video game at the moment and was witness to the glorious moment. I didn't get the first one but the next few I did get on video and I will see if I can figure out how to post it. :)

A certain little cutie is awake and wants to be fed.....

...and Bingo was his name-o!

2010-05-03T22:15:00.002-07:00

That song has been stuck in my head for several days now and it is driving me bonkers.

I cut my finger on an uber sharp knife this morning doing the dishes so I am going to try to keep this short because it hurts to type with it.

I decided last night while trying to fall asleep that I am going to "secretly" keep track of how many nights Dan actually goes to bed when E and I do. The trouble is I can't remember the last time he did. Of course when I wake up he is there but he always stays up hours after I go to bed playing video games. I can say for certain that the last three nights he has gone to bed late and of course to night it another game night so he won't be home for at least another hour and my bed time is in 15 minutes. Yes, I gave myself a bedtime. I have found that when I try to stick to it I can wake up earlier and be happier about it. I get more done and just feel better about life.

A certain baby just woke up from her cat nap so I am going to feed her and hopefully get some sleep.

4 days of going to be without my husband by my side..........................

2010-03-19T22:31:00.002-07:00

As you may or may not know I am OBSESSED with anything Sunbonnet Sue. I adore her. My wonderful husband "let" me buy a set of four books that are out of print and very difficult to find. I bought for three different sellers online to get them all. It was a bit costly but so worth it. I could only find pictures of two.

Praise be to God!

2010-03-18T09:30:00.002-07:00

Last night Evelynn slept through the night completely! I'm not sure about her night terrors because I was sleeping in bed. Dan stayed up last night playing video games while she slept in her swing. He did not wake me up to feed her 'till the morning. Yay! I have no idea if it was a fluke or if this is a sign of things to come but it was amazing. I did go through two bras and several nursing pads but it seems worth it.

I had to pump a little because I had filled so much with milk that I was pretty sure that she would not have been able to do her thing.

I would celebrate with Dan but he traded with me. I went to the living room and fed baby and he stole my side of the bed. *shrugs* Oh well, I got a bunch of sleep with really strange dreams. I think I will clean up the house a little before my best friend comes to town and Dan's friend Robert moves in this weekend-or maybe I'll do crafts! haha

2010-03-16T16:45:00.002-07:00

So my craft-a-day didn't even last 2 weeks but I am glad that I tried. I have started a few cool projects and will continue to make awesome things. I have several completed things to post but just haven't had the chance to because I am lazy and have this really cute baby who demands a lot of my attention.

This weekend is going to be a busy one. Friday I am hoping to spend time with my best friend who will be here, Saturday D, E and I are going down to San Luis to go to my parent's house warming party. They moved in a few months ago but waited for the party 'till we could go. Sunday Dan is canceling game night because Chico is moving in with us. Yep. I told myself once we were married we wouldn't have a roommate ever again but we are helping out a friend for a few months. It won't be so bad, in fact I'm sure he will prove to be most helpful.

My pumpkin is getting so big, I will have to put pictures up later for those of you who are interested, to be honest I'm not sure how many of you are out there. I can only think of two people who actually read this on occasion. No worries though, this isn't really for the world it is more for me to get out of my own head and out of my way.

I should spend some time with my Mouse and perhaps knit a bit-if I remember how. : /

It's been nice...

2010-03-04T22:45:00.004-07:00

The last two nights Dan and I have been able to sleep in the same bed AT THE SAME TIME! haha That hasn't happened in a while, well except for when my mom took care of her for us. I am so glad that she is allowing this to happen but it makes me sad that she is already growing up so fast. I look at how big she is compared to when she was first born, it's incredible how much she's changed.

I am tired so I am going to see if E will let me sleep....... Good night, God bless.

Evelynn 1-14-10:

Evelynn 3-4-10:

Goodies:

2010-03-04T22:10:00.007-07:00

Tuesday Dan and I were going to take E to the store to get something or another and as we were about to head out the door work called. He was under the impression that he had 20 minutes before he had to be at work but they told him nope, that they wanted him there 10 minutes ago. Since the baby was all ready to go I took Dan to work and E and I went to Hastings. I got a coffee drink and we sat and read magazines about quilting. When we were bored of that we went out. Evelynn has officially had her first thrift shopping experience! * applause* She was asleep for most of it which was fine. I took some pictures of a few of the things we picked up:

This is some pretty fabric that I found. It probably should have gone into the wash that I just did but I guess it can wait for next week.

I found three packs of thread for $1.25 each. I am a little bummed that they spools aren't all complete but a little bit of joy is better than no joy at all!

This right here is very special to me. I am trying to decide if I should give them both to my best friend or if I should keep one and give her one that way we remember each other since she lives so far away. Thoughts from the peanut gallery? They pretty much called out to me and said to buy them for her, I said how much are you? They informed me that they were so cheap I couldn't afford NOT to buy them! :D

I also got this cute sign for E but for some reason by blog is making it side-ways and I can't seem to figure out why or how to make it switch back to normal. Oh well, enjoy it anyway.

Day four:

2010-03-04T18:28:00.006-07:00

Ta-da!

I'm so proud of me. Honestly when I look at it I see a bit of a hedgehog resemblance! haha I still love it just the same. I was thinking that I might make one for my grandma because her birthday is coming up, however on second thought I think I remember my mom saying that she wasn't going to be sewing anymore. I will have to check. Either way I think it would make her smile.

It does look pretty good considering I only half read her instructions and then didn't even follow them. She has you sew the top first where as I did the bottom. I'm not sure if it matters or not but that's just how I roll.

I'm not sure if I am going to start another project tonight or not, Dan gets off work in 30 minutes so it would have to either be a quick one or one that I could finish right when he gets home. I will check the massive folder of crafts that I set aside for this month.

This is the back:

An angle shot:

A side shot:

Here is the link to the tutorial:

http://www.prudentbaby.com/2010/02/porcupine-pin-cushion.html

I haven't added the face on to mine yet because I wanted Dan to help me pick the colors.

**Oreofairy** This little guy or gal does not have a name or a gender, would you kindly ask your children if they could help him or her out? They are the best I know at naming. :)

Day two and three:

2010-03-04T13:30:00.006-07:00

So I am a slacker on posting my pictures. I let Kelli borrow my sewing machine so I was not able to so many of the cool projects that I have found. Instead I just tried to do the first day's project again. I did it smaller and in a different color. It still isn't turning out like Elsie's which is fine but I don't like it completely how it is. Something needs to change and I will keep working on it until I can get it how I want it.

Here is it:

The lighting is terrible, I know. I am STILL trying to figure out my camera after all these years!

Here is Kelli wearing it holding my Mouse:

Kelli brought back the sewing machine in the evening and by that time I didn't feel much like starting a big project. I started making a cute porcupine pin cushion but Dan and that baby distracted my with crying, dinner, nursing, and then television. Silly family taking me away from my crafts. I love that I didn't have any brown felt so I had Dan pick from the colors that I did have (they were left over from the Advent String of Lights I did a while back), he chose a dark blue piece of felt with light blue for the stitching.

Here is what I got done yesterday:

I will post a picture of the final product later on.

Day one:

2010-03-01T18:48:00.004-07:00

This is call a Mod Flower Hairpiece and I am so proud of me for doing it. When I first made it I didn't really like it because I messed up but the more I look at it the more I love what I've done.

We don't have a printer at home so I was not able to use her template for the blossom. After I finished making it husband came home and showed my how to copy it onto paper from the monitor. I'm excited to try it again now that I know what to expect. For the obvious reasons I was not expecting much from the first try.

It is so exciting to know that I will be creative this whole month...no matter what! haha

Here is the link to the tutorial. It is really cute:

http://abeautifulmess.typepad.com/my_weblog/2010/02/diy-jr-mod-flower-hairpiece-.html

The supplies. I ended up not using that button but didn't decided that until after I took the picture and didn't feel like taking another. :P

Me! With a cute hairpiece...

New idea for the month of March:

2010-03-01T16:45:00.002-07:00

Everyday for the entire month of March I will do a craft of some sort. That includes continuing a craft previously started by the day prior or starting a new project.

I am very excited to try this out. I will of course have pictures posted and if I got the idea from someone else I will of course give credit where credit it due.

I will now commence making a Mod Flower Hairpiece that I saw on A Beautiful Mess. Elsie is a brilliant woman. < 3

My how the time flies...

2010-02-28T09:30:00.003-07:00

On Friday Daniel had to adjust the straps on Eveylnn's car seat. She got to big for the tiny position. I swear she is a big girl already. It breaks mommy's heart.

Yesterday she had an outfit she's worn bunches of times not fit her anymore. I can't believe that she is outgrowing clothes already. I know that people always say that children will outgrow their clothing right away but it's just not fair!

I thought that I had more to share but I can't remember what it was...I really want to get this vomit out of my hair-silly baby- so I am going to shower then talk to my husband about church!

Another week down.

2010-02-26T16:35:00.004-07:00

I can not believe that it is Friday again already.

The baby is getting big and she is needy. haha Always wanting to be held or loved. Silly baby doesn't realize that mommy needs a break sometimes. That's what daddies are for. Her's is at work. *darn*

Things I love...things I love. What do I love this week?

1. The Milk Saver

I had no idea how much milk was being wasted every time I feed Mouse-but no more! It is so easy to use and clean I can't believe I went almost 2 months without it. I am definitely a spokesperson for them now and will be recommending them to all the moms I know who breastfeed. Which is a small amount because women in America are lazy and selfish. That's not to say that some women don't have a good reason for not nursing because I know a few people that had very good reasons for not but the majority of moms who bottle feed do it for dumb reasons. *End rant*

https://www.mymilkies.com/milksaver

2. The Sunbonnet Family

This is baby Sunbonnet Sue and Sun hat Sam. There are others including Overall Bill and Scottie Too. I am pretty obsessed with them so if you ever want to get me anything but don't know what here's a clue.

3. Jillian Danielson Photography

Our friend from church came over on Sunday and took pictures of the baby for us as a present. We have only seen a few but they are so darn cute! If we go to church on Sunday she said she would have them ready for us on a cd. I"m very super excited about that. Once we take a look at them we can pick one for her birth announcements and get them sent out!

It's sad how long it took me to come up with that third one. My brain is not functioning...but we'll save that for another blog.

Lovelies:

2010-02-19T14:02:00.002-07:00

Another week has come and gone. Last night was not a fun night: Dan is getting sick and E just wanted to cry forever and ever. We finally got her in the car around 3 and when we got home she slept. Ridiculous. It is so amazing to see how much she has grown these last few weeks. A woman at the gym gave me the simplest advice. She told me not to blink. Her daughter just turned 30 and she could not believe it.

Things that I love--from the internet!

1. This one-piece swim suit.

It is cute but I am afraid that if I order it the fitting will be off. I am going to look around town before I buy this one, of course.

2. This mouse! I think that this mouse if so cute but I would not spend that much on it. A bit to pricey for my coin purse. Also, what would I do with it???

http://www.etsy.com/view_listing.php?listing_id=40435190&ref=sr_gallery_16&&ga_search_query=baby+mouse&ga_search_type=handmade&ga_page=5&includes[]=tags&includes[]=title

3. This silly tissue box cover.

It has Sunbonnet Sue on it, whom I adore. Honestly it is so adorable, although once again it is not something that is incredibly useful. Still nice to look at.

http://www.etsy.com/view_listing.php?listing_id=34689697&ref=sr_gallery_19&&ga_search_query=Sunbonnet+Sue&ga_search_type=handmade&ga_page=7&includes[]=tags&includes[]=title

Tomorrow...

2010-02-12T15:00:00.000-07:00

Tomorrow my baby girl will be one month old. It's crazy. My mom offered to watch her for the night. I'm not sure if we'll take her up on her offer but it's a nice gesture. I would miss her for sure but we need the sleep.

We went to Phoenix earlier in the week. Everything is fine. I don't know if she was sick and all of the collective prayers healed her or if Havasu doctors are just dumb and nothing was wrong with her at all. All I know is that I am so very grateful that all that is bothering her is a little throat irritation because of all the throwing up she has been doing. Only time can make that all better. I want to thank everyone who was praying for her because now she is all better.

Still haven't had time to search the internet for pretty little things because I don't get a lot of time on the computer. Baby likes me to pay attention to her more than other things... Silly baby.

It's tragic:

2010-02-07T21:30:00.002-07:00

Today marks the two year anniversary of Connor's death. It is very sad and I wish that there was more that I could do to help Daniel. While Evelynn and I were doing Super Sister Sunday at my parent's house with Kelli Dan went to Connor's grave. I asked him if he wanted me to go with but he said that I could stay.

The trail starts a few days before my 23rd birthday which is a bit of a bummer but on the same token we are glad that progress is FINALLY being made. I can't say much on the matter because I tend to forget which things I should and should not say.

I am going to see if I can get the baby to sleep so I can sleep. We have a long day ahead of us tomorrow and I would like to be well rested if at all possible.

Another day...

2010-02-05T16:00:00.001-07:00

I can't really think of things I love right now... not enough sleep. Hopefully next week I will have better luck. I just haven't had time to go on the computer to just play and look around and neat, cool things.

I will however update you on the health of my baby. We are taking her to Phoenix on Monday to be seen at the Pediatric Surgeons of Phoenix. She has a stomach issue which causes her to throw up most of her meals. When I know more specifics I will share but as of right now she pretty much has a kink in her plumbing. Please pray for her.

Oops...

2010-01-27T16:00:00.005-07:00

So I didn't do a love blog last week but I have a newborn and that takes a lot of time. Dan and I have a system where if she isn't sleeping one of us will take her to the living room so the other can sleep in bed. Then we switch after a few hours. Its proven to be quite helpful.

Things I love:

1. My mom

She stayed in town for a week and came by everyday to help out. She even came over just so Dan and I could sleep. She helped clean and made breakfast. She is a great mother and I hope to be just as wonderful as she is.

2. My husband

He is my rock. He keeps me sane and I love him more and more each day.

3. Sleeping

I never knew how much I loved sleeping until it was disrupted ever 3 or so hours. Evelynn has gotten a lot better about sleeping longer but she still likes to stay up late. Silly party animal.

I am a mommy...

2010-01-16T22:10:00.004-07:00

Things I love:

1. My daughter

She is so darn cute!

2. Medela

I am very grateful that the breast pump was invented otherwise Evelynn might be a formula baby which is not the best thing for her.

3. Modern medicine

If it weren't for modern medicine both my daughter and I could be dead.

Any time now...

2010-01-08T16:45:00.006-07:00

I think I will try a new blog approach. Not that I will stop doing my random blogs but I will do a blog once a week at least and share something I like/love/am excited about. I am picking Fridays to do this because the new year started on a Friday and that's about it. :)

1. These baby booties!

I got the stuff to make these back in October of last year when I was buying stuff for the baby shower and never did anything with them. The first pair is almost done and then I will have pictures. If I like them enough I will make a pattern and put it up for anyone who wants to give it a try. They would make a great homemade baby shower gift!

2. My baby girl!

We had another ultrasound done because Dr. Wiese wanted to check the fluid level since the baby wasn't moving as much as she usually does. I love her alien face.

3. My anniversary!!!

Sunday is my one year anniversary to my wonderful husband. Wow that year has gone by so fast. I can't wait to eat more cake. ;)

A list of three seems like enough for today. We don't want to overload. Until next time....

Happy New Years!

2010-01-01T10:01:00.008-07:00

Last night Dan and I were enjoying ourselves at a party held by his boss when like clockwork I was having contractions that would not stop. At 11:45 we went to the hospital to see what was going on.

Nurse Ginger-the wonderful nurse we had for our Thanksgiving trip- was our nurse. She let me know that my contractions were 1-2 minutes apart but that I am still not dialated at all. Baby is at a -1 which means that she is just about my pelvis about to make her decent into the birth canal. Lovely.

We wait for 20 or so minutes connected to a monitor. What was interesting to Dan was that when we were talking to Ginger I had no contractions but when I was just sitting not talking I had lots of contractions.

After we chat for a few I was dishcharged.

I think it is really cool that our hospital had the first baby born in 2009 in all of AZ. It's sort of cheating- even though it wasn't a c-section which is totally cheating they did break her water to make her have the baby at that time. What pisses me off is that her due date was after mine but they still induced her anyway.

Dan and me in the hospital...again! Just ignore my bra showing in the first one. I didn't realize it was like that until after.

Recapture 2009

2009-12-31T20:35:00.006-07:00

I have not been able to track down all of 2009 but I am still working on it. It may just turn out that I am not as trigger happy with my camera as I used to be or as much as we all thought. *shrugs*

I will update more if I find more... :)

January

March

April

May

September

October

November

December

December 31, 2009

2009-12-31T10:35:00.001-07:00

Today is the last day of the month...and the last day of the year! Woopie. Actually I don't really care that much but it is pretty cool at the same time. I am going to go through the pictures I have on my computer to see if I can accumulate a picture from each month this year. I don't know if I can or not but I'm sure it can't be that difficult- I take pictures of myself all the time.

Not too sure what's going on tonight because everyone we know has dogs. A friend of Dan's whose house we were going to go to lets his dogs bite at people and Dan doesn't want me to be around that sort of environment, especially since they will yell at you if you hit or kick their dogs. *shakes head*

Here are a few pictures of me getting ready for tonight... Enjoy!

December 30, 2009

2009-12-30T23:45:00.002-07:00

I'm tired and nothing exciting happened today. Cathy Hoover said that I am 50% effaced but not dilated at all. She also said that the baby is a lot lower than last week but that I will probably be on time...

December 29, 2009

2009-12-29T18:54:00.002-07:00

Do you smell that? Today is rotten and needs to be thrown out. Tomorrow will be better-we'll chat then.

December 28, 2009

2009-12-28T14:35:00.003-07:00

I can not believe that month is almost over, let alone this entire year. I have been meaning to make up a list of resolutions-I'll get to it soon I'm sure. A lot has happened in 2009.

Dan and I had lunch with our good friend Richie at a cool Italian restaurant called Picazzo's.

December 27, 2009

2009-12-27T23:45:00.001-07:00

Sleepy...nothing exciting happened today.

December 26, 2009

2009-12-26T19:30:00.002-07:00

Here's me with super sunglasses and my awesome beanie. I'm cute!

December 25, 2009

2009-12-25T18:06:00.003-07:00

Merry Christmas... I love having being on break because I can go to my parent's house and my sister puts curlers in my hair! Yesterday they said I looked like my grandma when the curlers first came out and the curls were really tight and close to my head. She's beautiful so I'm not worried. :)

Here's me eating some delicious homemade bread:

December 24, 2009

2009-12-24T22:30:00.003-07:00

Merry Christmas Eve. It's a day and an eve at the same time-a Christmas miracle! Here's me taking a break from a long day of baking:

Why yes I am wearing my contacts!!! :D

String of Lights:

2009-12-23T21:00:00.025-07:00

I've wanted to do this project since I first saw it and now it is finished-thanks to the assistance of my wonderful husband.

December 23, 2009

2009-12-23T20:48:00.003-07:00

Today is a sad day. A good friend of Dan's passed away. Tomorrow would have been her birthday. Dan went to visit her in the hospital in Prescott, I believe. I was not able to go with him because at 36 weeks I am no longer allowed to go out of town. He is on his way back and said that he is hanging in but that it was harder than he thought it would be. Her family seems to be staying strong. I hope they know God and that He gives them comfort.

This is me hanging out on the couch most of the day sewing and watching Law and Order: Special Victims Unit:

December 22, 2009

2009-12-22T15:30:00.003-07:00

Why yes I am indulging with a Ghiradelli milk chocolate with caramel filling square. Fantastic stuff I might add. It rained this morning, very nice. I have been working on a craft project and my darling husband helped. It was a lot of fun. Lots of work involved so I have taken a break. I will probably post pictures tomorrow if I finish by then. Feeling sleepy because it is overcast-I may lie down for a nap or visit with my mom for a bit...

December 21, 2009

2009-12-21T22:45:00.002-07:00

I wrapped Christmas presents today... not as fun as I had hoped but at least it wasn't awful.

It's late-time to get ready for bed.

December 20, 2009

2009-12-20T23:15:00.003-07:00

I colored my hair again. I'm not sure if I notice a difference which bums me out. It was a four dollar box from Big Lots but I spent half an hour sitting uncomfortably waiting for something awesome. Oh well...

My mom and I put up their Christmas tree tonight. It's Super Sister Sunday but Kelli and my dad are in Tuscon for Kelli's work's Christmas party. Fun fun fun...

It's late and I'm getting tired. I hope Dan gets home soon.

So sad about Brittany Murphy dying......

Taken this morning: I look terrible when I don't shower-yuck!

Taken a few minutes ago after a hair job and a shower-much better!

It appears that fat face isn't something I will be getting rid of anytime too soon. :(

December 19, 2009

2009-12-19T21:21:00.002-07:00

Today we cleaned the living room, dinning room and kitchen. It looks very nice however our reason for cleaning bailed on us at the last minute. No worries though-we had my parents, Kelli and her boyfriend Chaz come over to watch Goldfinger. 007 days of Christmas has been delayed this year and we have only watched 3 James Bond films. It's a shame but we will just have to continue after Christmas. I can't believe that there are 23 official James Bond movies. We own two. :)

Me taking a break from cleaning:

I am a firm believer that a shower can make a day a million times better. Don't I look a million times better? I still have fat face but it looks better!

December 18, 2009

2009-12-18T14:15:00.002-07:00

We went to Walmart today so I could get my contacts only to realize after we got there that they wrote the prescription out for my glasses, not my contacts. The Walmart associate calls the office and they tell her that the last time I was there he didn't check my contact prescription. Not true. The original persciption I had was written out for contacts. I am unhappy about it. They told her that doctor is out of town and that on Monday they would have him fax something over. Total waste of my time and gas going out there. Not only that but rocks flew up and chipped the brand new windshield twice. How to get in the Christmas spirit???

I look depressed because I am bummed about how angry MD has been getting at everything..not at me but just life and everything around him. Quite unnerving.

December 17, 2009

2009-12-17T14:45:00.002-07:00

Last night I put a bunch of towels under my side of the bed in case my water breaks when I am sleeping or watching television. You may think it's a bit early but I would rather not take any chances. We paid a lot of money for our pillow topper and I would rather not have amniotic fluid stain it. It would be really tough to get out because of how coushy it is. Gross, I know.

we went to the doctor's today and they say at least another week without work... lovely. I'd best get back to cleaning and such.

December 16, 2009

2009-12-16T16:20:00.002-07:00

Dan and I had to go to Kingman for court stuff and since we were already there we walked down the street to a cute thrift store called "Paws-itively Charming Thrift Shoppe and Pet Boutique". It was adorable. It is a non-profit corp and all the money goes to the "For the Luv of Paws Domestic Animal Rescue & Sanctuary". Very cool stuff. After that we walked to the shop right next to it which was The Book Nook and got a few books for the baby, she has a library by now let me tell you...

Hanging out in The Book Nook!

December 15, 2009

2009-12-15T14:00:00.003-07:00

Yesterday we bought mix for waffles. Yay waffles! It's been so long since I have made waffles and they turned out fantastic!!! It sucks that I don't have an appetite I just eat when I feel enough time has passed since that last time I ate. It's really weird. Anyway...it's time to feed again. hahaha

December 14, 2009

2009-12-14T17:35:00.003-07:00

Dan likes to push me around in wheelchairs because I can no longer walk at his pace so he either has to crawl or be 10 steps ahead of me.

I look like total ass and it appears that there is a smudge on my glasses. My hair looks dumb too but I think that goes under the looking like ass category. Also, is it just me or does my face look a bit puffy??? Oh well. Let's just be done being sick before I have the baby-that would rock.

December 13, 2009

2009-12-13T12:00:00.003-07:00

My husband made me French Toast Sticks! Yay!

Hallway 4

2009-12-13T10:00:00.003-07:00

Last night around 11 p.m. my husband decides that my 100.5 fever should probably be checked out. I call L&D and they said to come in. We get there and they won't even let us in the door. They are afraid that if I am sick (IF I AM SICK) that I could get the babies sick and they don't want that. I am sent back downstairs after standing in the hall for 20 minutes to wait in the E.R. with everyone else. Joyous.

Just before midnight we get checked in but there aren't any beds because the E.R. is just go busy. We go back out to the waiting room and watch The DaVinci Code. Around 2 in the morning they moved me to a bed...a hallway bed. We waited in the hall for half an hour before the doctor came by and told me that she wanted to order a chest x-ray. They also did a swab for the flu which was not fun and made me sneeze.

Here's me sitting in Hallway 4:

At twenty to 3:00 I was done with the X-ray and lied down on my hallway bed. Just before three she came back and told me that it looks like I have the beginning stages of pneumonia but that they were still waiting for the results from the flu swab.

Twenty to four we were told that I do not have the flu but I do have pneumonia. They gave me medicine to take there and a prescription to fill and take at home. Dan stopped to get food so we for home at four, ate and went to bed.

I am feeling restless and am really bummed that I am missing church. MD was even going to join me this morning. So lame.

December 12, 2009

2009-12-12T10:30:00.003-07:00

I slept for almost 12 hours with breaks to go to the bathroom, cough up my lungs and take more medicine. I also took a 20 minute break to check my email because I wasn't sure if I wanted to get up and stay up or just get up to keep from going crazy. I plan on sanitizing everything with Lysol and doing the laundry, after that I am going to lie in bed and watch movies because that is all that I was authorized to do by MD.

I look awful!!! Sick of being sick day two:

December 11, 2009

2009-12-11T10:45:00.002-07:00

Today I am feeling sick. My original picture was of me eating my cookie crisp but the lighting was too dark and you couldn't make anything out so I was forced to take another one. I couldn't sleep last night and I look/feel like crap. Tomorrow I WILL be better though...

Also I am wearing clothes under the robe..gray sports bra and my black comfy pants. :)

December 9, 2009 + December 10, 2009

2009-12-10T12:21:00.000-07:00

I must have forgotten to post yesterday because we were getting ready to leave and whatnot. Here is yesterday and today:

December 10, 2009 we just got home from Laughlin and I am wearing a new shirt I got there. :)

December 9, 2009 it was cold but I didn't want to get dressed until after I showered or I would have been tempted not to shower at all. I'm silly I guess.

December 8, 2009

2009-12-08T07:17:00.001-07:00

Eating Corn Chex. I am freezing..... Also, I am wearing clothes-that's my red sports bra that I wear to sleep. I have to work this morning so I am up early early.

December 7, 2009

2009-12-07T09:00:00.000-07:00

So it looks like I actually look better when I'm eating because I don't know how to smile without looking like a douche. Fantastic! Here it is anyway... Tomorrow I will try to remember to take the picture when I am still eating.

I look like I'm sick, don't I?

December 6, 2009

2009-12-06T09:00:00.002-07:00

I blame Dan. He made me forget my photo for yesterday. We were busy in our childbirth class ALL day. It was from 8-5...what a day. I took 2 pages of notes front and back. :)

Here is today and I hope you'll forgive me for yesterday!

Why yes that is garlic toast! It's the opposite of brinner.

To make up for missing yesterday here is a special picture of Dan to look upon:

December 4, 2009

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Today is National Cookie Day so to celebrate here is a picture of me eating a cookie! Yay.

I want to get my new contacts and I really should do something with my hair... haha

December 3, 2009

2009-12-03T09:21:00.002-07:00

I look awful but then again I haven't showered for the day yet, also the peanut-butter toast rocks so much that I don't much care what I look like. I love waking up thinking it's after 10 and the morning is wasted only to find that it isn't even nine yet.

December 2, 2009

2009-12-02T15:15:00.004-07:00

I am eating breakfast- again. Go pop-tarts. That might be a theme for these pictures-we'll see.

Feeling lonely:

2009-12-01T16:20:00.003-07:00

I was reading a friend's blog and became very sad that I no longer have friends who live here that I hang out with often. Most of the people I know are acquaintances but not true friends. The majority of them are pregnant too which you would think would be a good thing but they all complain too much. Not too say that I don't complain at all it's just that I also have other things to say-they don't. Also, if they complain about something that I am not experiencing then I risk my pysco-somatic-ness taking over and I will soon have that symptom just because I was thinking about it. Dumb. I don't need that. This isn't where I had intended on going with this post.

I am sad because I don't have friends. There-I've said it. I had friends, friends I thought were really good friends when one day they were just gone. They don't even pretend to be that interested when I do see them at the store or other random places. It sucks. I don't know how to change that either. I don't expect any thought from the peanut gallery on this one either because lately it seems that I am just typing to myself. No worries though.....................

Work soon-must find and assemble shoes.

December 1, 2009

2009-12-01T11:15:00.003-07:00

I have approximately seven weeks of pregnancy left and I am eating a dry bagel for breakfast because we still don't have a working fridge/freezer. My hair is now blonde but few have noticed that I went from being a brunette to a blonde. People are dense. My toes are cold but if I put socks on I will shock myself any time I touch something metal.

HAPPY DECEMBER!

2009-11-30T22:45:00.002-07:00

I have spent a bit of time today looking at craft blogs and instead of them making me feel more inspired to do fun things they make me feel like I am just a big copy-cat with no original thoughts or feelings. Fantastic. That seems to be just what I needed. I hate feeling like I am not me. However I don't know how I can feel like me if I don't know who me is.

I am going to try something for the month of December and hopefully I can stick with it. I would like to take a picture of myself on my cell phone everyday just to see....well just to see I guess.
It might be lame but at the same time it might be not lame. Only one way to find out.

Tomorrow I will post about the epic adventure we had at the hospital Thanksgiving morning. It was such a blast. *snickers*

I'm getting tired but I am going to photo search for a few more minutes-hoping that MD will come home before I got to bed.

Our close call:

2009-11-30T16:36:00.005-07:00

Dan and I were trying to sleep Wednesday night when I woke up with severe abdominal pain. It was bad. I wake him and tell him that I am in a lot of pain. He asks me for a number on the scale of 1-10, I couldn't think it hurt so much. He said that we needed to go to the hospital. I didn't really want to so I compromised with him and said that we should call them to see what they think we should do-they are the experts after all. I called Labor and Delivery at 11:44 p.m. and the nurse told me that if the pain is bad enough that I am calling I should come in. Great. I tell Dan and we get dressed to head out. I go to the bathroom because that's what I'm good at these days. Whilst in there I throw up-I throw up a lot. We had people over that night for a BBQ and it was so much fun. The hot dogs I are were Kosher so I know that I wasn't sick from them. Anyway, I throw up my food and it was gross. I tell Dan because he was in the other room and didn't know. I get cleaned up and we head out.

We get there and we go to admitting because there was no one in triage. While signing some papers out friends Heavenly and E.T. show up. She only had 3 weeks left of her pregnancy unlike my 8 weeks so it wasn't a big deal for them. We get up to the maternity ward and they have me change into the sexiest gown ever. They hook up fetal monitors and a blood pressure cuff. They come back every once in a while to see how I am doing. Nurse Ginger tells me that I am having contractions every 2-3 minutes apart and that if worst comes to worst they will be sending me to Phoenix because I am not term yet and they are not equipped to handle preterm babies. Fantastic! They tell me that they are going to give me medicine to stop the contractions. I can have up to three shots of this first one, if that doesn't work then I can have three shots of another one, if that doesn't work then they will have to try something else. Very encouraging as you can imagine. She gives me a shot of tributaline, which is an asthma medication, it is used to relax muscles which in this case was my uterus. It started working so she gave me another one to help the first one along. After a bit more time they stopped and she said that she would check with my doctor but that I will probably be going home soon. Yay.

As we were leaving the nurse told us that we could check in on Heavenly because we are friends and whatnot. We went in and visited with them for a few minutes but didn't stay long because it was so late and we were sleepy. She was having stronger contractions but wasn't dilated very much. They kept her over night but ended up releasing her in the morning because she had no change. Hopefully she will have her little boy soon.

We got home and went to bed (again) just after 2:45 a.m. Thanksgiving morning.

What a time we had. I have 3 pictures that MD took of me:

Didn't I tell you it was a sexy gown???

I don't know why Dan looks so happy-he must be delirious from sleep deprivation.

Don't pretend you ever forgot about me.

2009-11-12T12:34:00.002-07:00

I think it's funny that most of my titles are just lyrics from whatever song is playing in my head at the time.

I really want to get some software to practice typing drills. I used to love doing those in high school when I took that typing class. So much fun!

Problem solving time: How do you confront your mother-in-law without being confrontational? Tough one-I know. Trust me I don't like having issues with her anymore that you like listening to them.

She wants the baby to call her "Mam-maw". I don't like it. I don't want her forcing my child to do it. I think that the main reason she wants to be called that is that is what Connor called her. Well my child isn't Connor and I don't want her comparing them or making my child a replacement. My baby is not Connor. My grandma has my cousins calling her "Bunny" which I don't like and think is a bit inappropriate for a child to be calling their grandparent but that's their deal. I told her that we will should just let her see what she wants to call her that maybe she would come up with something funnier/better. I don't call Ann "Bunny" because I call her "Grandma Ann". I guess Dan's grandmothers told him what they wanted to be called. I think that is rude. The one didn't want to be called grandma at all and they just called her by her first name. The other one wanted to be called Grammy. Whatever. I don't want people telling my kid what to do. I tried talking to Dan about it but he said to just let it go. I tried that-trust me. It's not working. The more I try to let it go the more it bugs me. It's really bothering me and I don't know how to tell her that I don't want Evelynn to call her "Mam-maw". I want my daughter to call her what she wants to. Gah. I don't want to offend her but she has her own kids that she told what to do- she won't be telling my kid what to do.

I'm confused as to why his family is getting another dog. Yes it was sad when Roxy died but Dan and I were able to go over there without feeling ill for the rest of the day. We are both allergic to dogs and that means that more than likely the baby will also be allergic to dogs. Which equals us not going over there with the baby and that they can't babysit her at their house. Great stuff.

This blows. There was something else that I was upset about but I am too tired to remember.

If I'm lucky I won't remember it ever and that would be problem solved! Not likely though....

One year.

2009-11-02T16:23:00.002-07:00

I can't believe that it has been one year since Barry died.

Just typing that just doesn't seem right. How can Barry be dead? No sense at all. I wonder where he would be right now. What would he be doing? Would he still love being a Marine? I know his family was so proud of him on his graduation day.

Daniel and I went to his grave today. I put some flowers out for him. Even though it has been a year since he was laid to rest there no grass is growing-not even starting too. Thankfully most of the ants are gone but there have not completely disappeared. It makes me sad that people poured beer out on the dirt because nothing can grow in beer-too much acid or salt in it. Tragic really. I am also grateful that there are no beer can or cigarette butts scattered around anymore. It was disgraceful and distasteful. Some people have no respect.

I miss him.

I have not seen Summer in a while but when I did she was so big. Already in school and causing trouble.

I hate that this world is without him.

My day hasn't been as bad as I had thought it would be but it certainly hasn't been good.

I am getting a headache so I am going to drink some more water before I head off to work...

I hope to cheer up tonight when my husband and I have a nice steak dinner-I don't eat steak but I'll eat something else whilst he enjoys his. I may even set some candles up on the table to make it more romantic.

Blessing.

2009-09-08T16:35:00.002-07:00

I forgot to mention that I for sure felt the baby move last night. I confirmed it by having D. put his hand on my belly and he felt it too! It was so very exciting. I was trying to sleepy so I had to tell her to knock it off that we would play in the morning. What a blessing.

My husband...

2009-09-08T16:15:00.007-07:00

is amazing. More on that in a minute.

We found out last Thursday that we are having a girl. I am not sure how many people read this but I'm sure that you all already knew that. *fail* Here are some pictures anyway. Her name is going to be Evelynn *Danger Irwin. We still can't think of a middle name yet. My friend Steve suggested Danger so that's what it will be for now!

Feet:

Spine:

Face:

Girly parts + butt:

Yesterday my husband gave me this necklace:

So beautiful, right? He's amazing. There was no reason for it, no birthday-anniversary or big fight to make him feel he had to buy me this. Just because he loves me! I love it- and him.

I had get my stuff together for work. I enjoyed my day off yesterday. :D

2009-09-03T20:08:00.004-07:00

So we went to the doctor's today to find out the sex of the baby. We are having a girl!

On my mark, get set, BLOG!

2009-08-31T09:30:00.002-07:00

For some reason today is International Blog Day. What better way to celebrate this blessed occasion than with a blog! :)

This morning I woke up a lot earlier than normal which is fine by me I just hope I don't need a nap because of it. I let my sleeping pattern get away from me. Waking up early today though gave me the chance to make some appointments. Dan made our WIC appointment for today and I made one to get my eyes checked out (hopefully get new glasses and an RX so I can order new contacts cheaper online) and one with Tasha to get my hair cut and eye brows waxed (they are running rampant like my sleep schedule haha)

All in all I feel productive today. I even called Dr. Wiese's office to confirm my next ob appointment because Dan got confused and I wanted to appease him. I'm such an awesome wife!

I think I may have FINALLY felt the baby move last night. I can't say for certain because I have never felt a baby move but it felt like bubbles popping and I didn't have gas so it wasn't that. Most everyone has said that it feels like bubbles or butterflies so I guess it could be.

Hopefully I have convinced Dan that the baby is old enough to be read to and he will start reading stories to my belly. That way the baby know FOR SURE who his or her daddy is! Silly, I'm sure but it's cute too.

I should probably clean the house up a bit before my appointment....

Nutrition

2009-08-26T19:45:00.002-07:00

I would really like some brownies.

It seems like a logical request but the more I think about it the more I complicate it.

D complains that he no longer likes what he sees in the mirror but won't go to the gym and eats massive bowls of ice cream. I hate it. I used to do it myself and I hated when I did it. I've been told countless times by countless people that I need to eat healthy for the baby and that it will make it easier to lose the baby weight. While one the one hand that is true I would really like to make a nice batch of brownies.

Dumb.

Sorry to waste your time with this one...

The baby:

2009-08-26T18:59:00.006-07:00

This one is at 8 weeks 5 days:

This one is the heart beat at 8 weeks 5 days :

This one is at 9 weeks 3 days:

This one is the heart beat at 9 weeks 3 days:

We keep waiting on the world to change:

2009-08-26T18:45:00.002-07:00

I read blogs but then never post on my own. Not that I don't have very rad things going on in my life (I don't) but whenever I sit down to my computer nothing seems to come out.

Saturday or was it Sunday...Saturday I went to Walmart with my mom and Kelli. I got some really great fabric and have made several new aprons from it. I am very excited about it. I made Kelli a cool one that is all buttons for the design. I made myself a Halloween one and a Thanksgiving one. I also have Christmas material that I am so super pumped about. Kelli gets a Thanksgiving and a Christmas one as well but no Halloween one because she did not want one. Once they are finished I will take pictures. One the first one I used to pattern almost to the t. For the other ones I used the basic outline but did my own thing for the most part. Still trying to get it down to a science though.

The dryer buzzes at me. The work of a housewife and a soon-to-be mom is never over, is it? I guess I should be grateful that I am not washing 12 loads of baby clothes just yet.

Some days I wonder if we will ever get this house (condo) looking like a home, other times I can almost see it happening before my eyes. I did some massive cleaning in my office/sewing room. Most of the junk is now in the living room which oddly enough is where is came from when Dan decided to clean the living room. It won't stay out there of course we are trying to make it look nice enough to have guests over. We finally, thanks to my mom, have a lock to put on the storage that we have downstairs. I got a lot of what we don't ever use together for relocation. Mainly boxes, Danny's swords, SCA clothes and accessories.

My pinky finger always hurts when I type. I use it too much or incorrectly.

We find out the sex next week. That will be neat information to have. I must have forgotten to post the pictures we got a while back. I will get on that before next Thursday, I promise. In fact I might do it now before Daniel gets home from work.

It's a human:

2009-06-04T16:11:00.006-07:00

They checked my pee for a baby- I was sure that there was one hiding in it.

The heartbeat- it was very cool to listen to.

The circle is not the head but rather part of the egg-stuff.

Doctor: Cute as a button.
Me: About as big as a button.

I'm so clever sometimes!

Happy birthday to me!

2009-04-23T16:15:00.002-07:00

I am 22 years old today. The end.

Or maybe not. It is the first birthday that I have not seen my mommy but I will see her tomorrow and we will have fun at the beach on Saturday. I have invited lots of people so I am really hoping that at least a few of them actually show up.
We are moving next week and I am so grateful for that. I don't want to live here anymore. Our new place is so cute and I am excited to decorate.

I'm going to go see my husband at work before I too have to go to work. Have a great my birthday!

It's been a while...

2009-04-01T16:27:00.002-07:00

It appears to have been too long since my last post. I think of things that I would like to post about and plan the whole thing in my head but then never follow through with it. Very sad actually.

I should be getting my A.A. in May if I can manage to pass my math class which is difficult for me. I was always into words while Kelli was into math. My music class was giving me trouble but I seem to know what I am doing these days for the most part.
Dan was denied for for health insurance so now we owe the hospital $300 to have a P.A. write a prescription for a $5 bottle of meds. Stupid.

My collection of fabric seems to be growing steadily and yet I have lost my imaginative creative abilities or something, then sometimes not. I will think of an amazing idea for a blanket and then not follow through with it completely. I made a dress for my friend Pam's little girl Skylar. At first it was too small and then it was too big. I probably should have taken the measurements myself.

I'd like a more interesting life please.

Mmm...butter noodles!

2009-02-11T15:45:00.004-07:00

This has been a very busy and exciting week. Sunday was my good friend Jacci's birthday. She turned *cough* twenty-one! haha (Love you.) Tuesday (yesterday) was my one month of being married anniversary and Saturday, while being Valentine's day, is also my good friends' Dan and Alicia Diemer's six year wedding anniversary. Very way cool.

I'm sure there was a reason I started this but it has slipped my mind. Happy 50th post! :D

Yay!!!

2009-01-28T15:15:00.001-07:00

Thanks so much to the Diemers I now have a copy of the wedding video. Hooray! ...and here it is-in all it's shaking glory-Enjoy!:

Kate's Wedding from Dan Diemer on Vimeo.

Married life:

2009-01-20T21:00:00.002-07:00

I have been informed that I need to post since it has been a very long time. Danny and I are almost all the way moved in. There are a few more things left at the old house and tons of boxes left to open. We were going to do Thank You cards for the wedding presents but then I had to go to class and he had work. I'd like to get it done tomorrow, that and the bathroom. haha

Our mini-moon was a bust. We were sick and gross and had only a little bit of fun. We did enjoy The Tournament of Kings though. Danny more than me because I was throwing up. He said that the dinner was amazing, I only wish I had gotten to enjoy it. They were really nice and wrapped it up to for me but then we ended up not having a refrigerator in our hotel room. Way lame. I did walk into the men's restroom- that was fun and embarrassing. We did some walking and lots of people, both male and female, tried to hand us those half naked girl cards. No thank you!

I really want to get the table over from the old house so I can start sewing again. It has been far too long. I had planned on doing nothing but sewing over winter break and ended up not doing any at all. I did however get a lot of knitting done. I still need to learn how to cast of at some point. I am very excited that my good friend Jacci has asked that I teach her how to knit, it is very exciting for me!

I'm bored of typing so I am going to find something to watch on Netflix and then go to sleep. I will see husband in the morning, when he comes home. [Game night has been changed to Tuesday nights.]

Merry Christmas!

2008-12-25T10:45:00.006-07:00

Very generic title, I know. Whatever.

So this Christmas season has had very many ups and downs but in the end God is good, and I am still dyslexic (I put den instead of end).

I had fun with friends and family. I got my hair cut yesterday. Pictures soon to follow.

This is the tree that Danny and I started out with. It wasn't my first choice but it was cute and made me happy.

I came home from work one night and found that someone (my family) had snuck into my house and left a Christmas tree. Exhibit A: The tree

Don't judge it solely on this picture because it kept getting knocked over so it's a little misshapen now. Very sad. Danny wants to take it down today. I think I may be able to leave it up till the end of the week if I use my magic. We will be moving soon so it will need to be put away soon anyway.

Exhibit B: Kelli entering my house with said tree

I am stuck at home until Danny gets off work at 2:30 unless I call my mom for a ride. Time to get more packing done!

Merry Christmas; I love you all!!!

<3

(Semi-colons are under-rated.)

Comfort and joy...

2008-12-20T17:30:00.002-07:00

We have received our first (and second) wedding gift. It's very exciting. Three weeks exactly.

I have an early dinner with the twins in half an hour.........

Tomorrow I am going over to my parent's house, after Girlmore Girls, but before Super Sister Sunday to wrap presents. Christmas has gotten away from me this year. I am trying very hard to be festive this year but our living situation is making it very difficult. :(

I'm getting hungry.

Not sure why I wanted to post because there is not much to write about, plus I must not a lot of time to write anyway.

Danny didn't pass his test today so he is very sad about that. :(

Beautitful One I love, beautiful One I adore...

2008-12-05T15:54:00.002-07:00

Oh the joys of Christmas shopping. Danny and I did a little bit at Walmart today but I am doing a lot right now on Overstock.com. They have some great stuff that I am very excited about. Free shipping too which is nice because that would really start to add up otherwise!

I'm not really sure why but for as long as I can remember really I have not had great best friends. The person I would chose would be my friend but they had their own best friend. So they were my best friend and some other person was theirs. Not so much fun really. Even today, as an adult, it seems that I have the same problem. I don't really like it. Not really sure how to remedy it though.

I really can not wait to be out of this house..............

It's freezing in here but I refuse to turn on the heat. I will close some of the windows and/or doors and then maybe put my sweater back on.

I have a rental car right now that I love driving. It has a cd player in it which mine does not so I can't wait till I have to drive somewhere else so I can put a cd in. I should really think for a while about what I should play. I have the car till about Tuesday so I have time to play a lot! Yays.

Three years...

2008-11-13T13:30:00.002-07:00

Today would have been a three year anniversary for me. That's very strange to think about.

I'm still not sure if I should go to Barry's grave today or if that would be weird.

It's very difficult, still, to comprehend his death.

I suppose time heals all wounds........

I'm very glad to know that he is in Heaven right now. It's also comforting, in a way, that through his death he save many souls.

smiles

2008-11-12T16:58:00.002-07:00

Greatest husband ever... we aren't even married yet and he is already amazing! He said that if we can afford it I can get the personalized m&ms for the wedding. They are a bit on the expensive side but they are just so awesome. I love their chocolaty goodness. Happy day!

I'm amazed by you...

2008-11-09T14:45:00.003-07:00

Not last night but the night before I had a dream that I was somewhere green and pretty. I was hanging out and talking with Barry. I realized after a bit of talking with him that he was dead and that I was talking to a figment of my imagination. Do you think that maybe my dream was trying to tell me something? I think that might explain why I haven't cried much the last few days. It has to be denial. I asked Danny if I could just stay in denial that it was easier but he said no that acceptance is easier. I'm not sure how to death with it. It hurts so bad inside.

WHAT DO I DO???

Any minute now I am going to break down.........

This imfamous day in history....

2008-11-07T12:34:00.001-07:00

Here is an expert from my journal November 8th, 2005.

"I went to the movies last night with Erik. It was basically against my better judgment. Sean didn't even try to tell me not to. What the hell? It was practically a date with a married man. It freaked me out because we used to have a thing and now he is married with a small child to someone that I used to consider my best friend. I suck sometimes. Did you know that? After the movie we went to the park and walked around. We started talking about you know who. He was explaining to me how to get him back. It sounded like a good idea at first... but after a while I was like wait a minute this isn't right. It seemed as though I would be tricking him into loving me again and that isn't what I want at all. I think that I am expecting too much and just do something else with me life. Not try to move on or get over him but just step to the side and keep going in a new direction."

I will make the entire entry available via this link.

The "you know who" I am talking about is Richie Sloma. He's a good guy.

What I left out of that post three years ago was that when Erik took me home we went to my room to hang out for a bit. He started to kiss me and when he started making sexual advances I told him no. Being the very aggressive person he is he did not listen and continued on. Now this is the part that confuses most people and I don't have an explanation for it either so please don't ask. My parents were home and asleep when he raped me so I could have called for help and I didn't. I didn't scratch at him or hit and kick at him. I just lied there and did nothing.

Last Tuesday at the Woman's Bible study at church Pastor Maureen was talking about all the women in our church who have been abused in some way by men. I really didn't want to admit to it but afterward she had several people doing an alter call. I went up and had Patty Betrue pray for me. I explained that three years ago I had been raped. She was so sad for me and prayed for me. While she was praying for me I felt my body getting really heaving and like she was pushing on me with all of her might. I tried to fight it for several minutes but it was just getting to be too much to stand off. I finally gave in and just let the weight take over. I fell out. Fortunately we have some very savvy women in our church who were paying attention and realized what was happening to me. (I feel horrible but I can't remember her name now-Cat's mom.) She looked to Jacci and told her that she needed to get behind me. Jacci didn't believe her but she insisted and lo and behold she was right. Jacci caught me and layed me on the floor. They prayed for me a bit more and when I opened my eyes I felt so amazing. I felft to light and happy. It was a wonderful feeling. Knowing that I had just experenced something great from God it was only natural for Satan to try to get his grimmy little hands on me. I fought him tooth and nail.

That same day I got home and there is a message on myspace from a guy name Jimmy. He is Abby's boyfriend. Abby was my best friend. He wanted to know information about her and Erik. Nice timing Satan. (Jerk.)

I gave Jimmy some information however I don't really feel all that comfortable saying anything about a person on the internet because once it's out there you can never get it back. He did, however, have the right to know that she does have a sketchy past, we all do, and that she was mean to me and very controlling most of the time .

I feel like there is more that I have to let out but I'm not sure what it is or how I would even say it. So I will just have to leave you wanting more................

I am so blessed to have such a good God who sent me a wonderful man to spend my life with. Danny is so understanding and helpful. I don't know what I'd do or where I'd be without him.

Give me your eyes so I can see.

2008-11-06T14:10:00.000-07:00

Barry Lee Wilsey
04/07/1988-11/02/2008
Father, Friend, Lover

He will be missed.

The service will be Monday November 10 at 2:00 p.m.
He will not be viewed.

I'm not sure what I'm doing:

2008-11-01T20:45:00.000-07:00

I'm not really sure why I hit "new post", but I did. I finished my book today so tomorrow I can work on the essay. I should also start on the poem that will be due at the end of the semester. Now that my partner has been deployed to Kuwait without warning I must do it all on my own. Good stuff, eh?

I'm tired of feeling selfish.

I want to cry sometimes but I am so sick of being weak it hurts. I'm an adult and need to act accordingly.

On our walk tonight I wanted to badly to talk to Danny about something but I was also really thirsty and we were so close to the house that I knew if I started talking he would want to keep going instead of going inside. I'm a chicken.

Bock!

I'm really afraid.....................................I'm afraid that when Danny and I have kids he won't love them as much as Connor and that his family will always be comparing my kid to her kid. It's probably crazy but I don't know, maybe it's not. It's really scary though. Not in a "thriller movie" sort of way in a "my husband won't love my kids as much as his deceased son" sort of way.

I probably shouldn't have posted that but oh well...................

Stop being so self-centered!!!

Clearly I am fighting some demons here.............

You captured my heart with this love, because nothing on earth is as beautiful as You.

2008-10-30T08:45:00.000-07:00

It's official: Danny proposed last night!!! Yay.

We were taking our evening walk only at the beach just to change scenery. We had a great walk. We saw ducks sleeping, woke them up accidentally by talking to loud, then saw them fall back to sleep. They sleep very strangely. A fish jumped up out of the water at the bridge and scared us. Then we were walking back we saw a crane standing in the water. It was the neatest thing. We got pretty close to it before he flew away to a buoy. He made the greatest bird sound ever.

We cut across the grass and then laid on his jacket as not to get wet. It was so beautiful sitting there looking at all of the stars. We even saw a shooting star. I look back at Danny and there he is with this gorgeous ring. If I had been thinking I would have cleaned the dirt out from my nails but oh well. I had to use lotion to get this bad boy on and it hurt a lot to get it off. It's half a size too small. I'm very sad that it will take 3-4 weeks to get back from being re-sized. I want to wear it now!!!

This is the engagement ring part.

This is a blurry one but my camera is crapping out on me so there is noting I can do. They link together as so:

The wedding is set for January 10, 2009!!!

Just a melody...

2008-10-21T16:20:00.000-07:00

My darling, handsome, honey-face is depressed and I have done almost all that I can think of to help him. I have a few more tricks up my sleeve that I am going to try tomorrow to help him out.

Thanks to Dan Diemer I have narrowed it down to two Bible that are in chronological order.

http://www.amazon.com/Reese-Chronological-Bible-Edward/dp/0871231158/ref=pd_sim_b_2

and

http://www.amazon.com/Chronological-Study-Bible-Nkjv/dp/0718020685/ref=sr_1_1?ie=UTF8&s=books&qid=1224603229&sr=1-1

I like them both so much I'm thinking about getting them both. Not at the same time of course because we really can't afford either at this point but it is something to aspire to. The Bible is very confusing and I think that if I read it in order it might help. We'll see.

Well today I am going to ride my bicycle to work so I am going to leave a bit early to give myself enough time to get there. Hopefully Danny will remember to pick me up! It's a long way uphill in the dark otherwise!

You've stolen my heart, yes You have...

2008-10-20T20:45:00.001-07:00

Driving home from class tonight I wanted to drive my car into a wall. However with my luck I would have lived and would have had massive medical bills and once again be in need of a new car. [I did not crash my first car on purpose-do not get me wrong.] I just wanted or rather needed something..anything, I'm just not sure what. While I was thinking about driving into a wall the most prominent thought in my head was that I was hungry. There must be something wrong with that, I'm sure.

My fat thunder thighs have struck again. Another pair of nice jeans have a fatty hole worn into them in the crotch-al area. It makes me very sad. I hate this so very much.

I told Danny that I want to be a librarian at a Christian school. I thought that would be pretty cool. However my knowledge of the Bible leaves something to be desired. That just means that I have a lot to learn I guess. What am I to do?

In my opinion God needs to speak to me like a laymen. Break everything down for me like that so I can understand Him and do as He wants. I really just want to cry.

I have a feeling that I am never going to get the hang of knitting. I keep trying though. I am waiting for my movies from Netflix on knitting. That should be interesting. They have all sorts of stuff on there.

I feel like I am too concerned with myself rather than others. Danny says that I have a very kind heart. He's sweet like that. Always telling me how great I am and pointing out when I am helping others.

A few weeks ago in book club Ryan and Ernie mentioned a version of the Bible that is in chronological order of when it happened. I didn't write down the name of it before I forgot it so now I am trying to figure it out any way I can. Google wasn't much help but I have just recently (today in CIS 110) that Yahoo has several million more hits than Google does sometimes. I will have to try my search again.

A few months back a girl that Kelli was friends with was living in my old room. It has come to my attention that she had magazines sent to the house and since she in no longer a residence of that house I get them! Yay! This is something cool I found from Woman's Day. I am very excited to it out.

Here are the links if anyone is interested in them:

http://www.womansday.com/Recipes/Spiderweb-Pizzas

and

http://www.womansday.com/Recipes/Creepy-Cupcakes

Here is the main page for the "Devilish Delights" if you so desire:

http://www.womansday.com/Articles/Food/Recipes/Devilish-Delights.html

Despite looking at the delicious pizza I am still so very depressed and just want to cry. However I am a big girl, and big girls don't cry.

I only have one chocolate cupcake left from my mommy's birthday and despite the longing I have to eat it I feel that I must save it for tomorrow when things are worse. Yes, I do expect things to get worse before they even begin to look better.

One thing that I have to look forward to is making Halloween cookies with one of my best friend's Jacci . She is such an inspiration.

Currently I am listening to "Forest Light". It's a "natural harmony collection", basically just nice relaxing music. Some rain falling, some flutes playing. Really amazing stuff. It helps to block out Danny absurdly loud friend's when they are over to play DnD or Vamp. Sometimes I have headphone on other times I just play it through the speakers. Yet somehow Bryan's ridiculously obnoxious laugh can still break through. Ungodly.

Time to find something more productive to do with my time. Goodnight.

Yay!!!

2008-10-06T10:30:00.000-07:00

I am now working at London Bridge Racquet and Fitness Center! I will be in the day care Tuesdays and Thursdays from 5:00-7:30. Pretty sweet............

We'll never get bored cuz we can go boarding...

2008-09-19T18:40:00.000-07:00

According to my calculations it has been a while since my last post.

My little sister's 20 birthday is on Sunday. My dad went to visit my mom this weekend so neither of them will be here. I think she wanted it that way. I'm going to either take her to all the thrifts store or not. Tomorrow Danny and I are going to go around and treasure hunt for her. I'm prepared to spend $10-20 on her. I've already got her two presents. I would have three but I don't know where I put it so I can't very well give it to her.

I am doing laundry currently at my house!!! A few months ago the lovely Diemer's gave us their old washer and dryer set. The catch? They didn't work. Or rather they didn't work for us. The washer leaked and the dryer was missing screws. $100 dollars later and we are washing laundry in the comfort of our own home!

Lately I have been slacking majorly on my school work and it is catching up with me.... I need to manage my time better.

You are crowned all powerful...

2008-09-06T14:48:00.000-07:00

Excerpts from Daily Strength for Daily Needs for September 6. I bought this book for my mom at St. Vinny's but ended up keeping for myself:

And he said to them all, If any man will come after me, let them deny himself, and take up his cross daily and follow me. Luke 9:23

To take up the cross of Christ is no great action done once for all. It consists in the continual practice of small duties that are distasteful to us. -Cardinal John Henry Newman

I would have you, one by one, ask yourselves, In what way do you I take up the cross daily? -Edward B. Pusey

Every morning, receive your own special cross from the hands of your heavenly father. -Lorenzo Scupoli

Even after having read that I'm still unsure of what it means to carry your own cross. Is it just going through the daily struggles of being a christian? If anyone can shed some light on the subject for me that would be great.

The bears can smell the menstruation...

2008-09-06T11:45:00.000-07:00

Oh menstruation.

When I first started my period no one really explained it to me all that well. I honestly thought that I was going to bleed every day until my 50s when menopause hit. I was very sad that I would never be able to wear white panties again. I soon found out that my assumption of bleeding forever was incorrect when my period stopped and everything went back to normal for a few weeks. I still feel silly for thinking that.

Random semi-gross thought for today.

What a way to wake up...

2008-09-06T11:00:00.000-07:00

In the middle of the night I woke up because I had to pee. I came back to bed and noticed that Danny didn't have any covers on and his skin is very cold so I covered him up with the sheet and blanket and rubbed his back to get him warm. He was an icicle. A few hours passed and I woke up to a blanket being put over my head and my face being rubbed. Danny, in his sleep, thought that my face was my back and wanted to be helpful and over me up. I say "Daniel!" He asks me what was wrong and I proceed to tell him that he just covered my face. The response I get? In the most innocent child-like voice I hear "You're welcome." and he goes back to "sleep". What a cutie-face. I just about died of laughter but I was still tired so I just went back to sleep reminding myself of what had just happened as not to forget.

When we both actually got up this morning we had a good laugh about it.

Life is good.

God must have heard my prayer last night...

2008-09-05T22:30:00.000-07:00

Just when I think that I am about to lose him I realize how in love with me he is.

God bless our home.

2008-09-04T10:15:00.000-07:00

The word of the day is perseverance or rather vigilance. Things have been picking up and going so well in our lives that Satan is trying to do any and every little thing to make us stray from God but it's not going to happen! With Danny having his second job we were going to be able to get a real bed in about 2 months (if we wanted the really nice one-one month for the okay one). We were very excited about it. Well Danny's bank is suck and he doesn't keep track of his spendings so when he gets down in his account the bank puts through all the little Taco Bell purchases so he'll go over and they can overdraft him. Now he owes them $75 or so...that's a big chunk of my bed going away. Plus I think our air mattress may have a leak in it because it is going flat quicker than usual. It makes me sad because it is really starting to mess with my neck and back. I can't imagine what it is like for Danny because his job is laborous.

I need to kick it up a knotch and start getting my reading done for class. I have 4 classes and so much reading for all of them...

We keep waiting for the world to stop by it won't slow down and we'll never catch up.

2008-09-03T13:35:00.000-07:00

My eyes are itchy. I finished my first ever third row of knitting! Twice. I say twice because as I was going for my first fourth row ever I messed it up and had to start over from row one. Ouch. I think that I am finally getting the hang of it and I will soon have a scarf or something that at least resembles a scarf. So exciting.

I don't know why but recently it has been bothering me that I have no single girlfriends that have no children. I had friends with no husbands but still have kids. I love my friends, don't get my wrong but the main three I have-- Alicia, Jacci, and Shannon--all of kids. Three of them each. (I cry at the fact that I only have 3 friends, btw.) Plus their husbands. I long to have friends that are my age that are where I am in life. I finally found a friend like me but she just recently found out that she was pregnant so now she is not like me. She is with child. I don't think that it is so crazy to want a 21 year old [[[Christian]]] friend who doesn't have children or a spouse. It's a tough thing to find in this town that's for sure. I want to double date??? I don't know if I actually want to do that but it has always sounded fun. Except anyone I would even want to go with would need to find a sitter and whatnot. Too much hassle I think. Would it be crazy of me to put up an ad on Craig's List looking for a non married, non-baby having Christian friend?!? Probably. It stinks.

Time to grow up I guess...............

***Le sigh***

Because I need You more than ever...

2008-09-01T00:01:00.000-07:00

I am getting tired. The internet is full of knowledge. Currently I am looking at engagment rings and information on fasting. And Alicia you can suck it because I am not wedding obsessed Danny told me to send him links so he would know what I like! So there! :P

It is freezing in here. I haven't been cold in this house in a long time. Our electric has been really high so Danny has been a Nazi about the a/c. I guess the weather is finally cooling down to a point where my blood won't boil. We never did fry that egg on the side walk like we said we would. I was looking forward to that. I have lived here for all these years and have never done that. It's sad, really.

Tomorrow would be Connor's second birthday and it makes me very sad. I'm still not sure how Danny is going to handle it. He took the day off work so he doesn't want to worry about that. I really hope that he's okay. I know that he is doing a lot better but I still worry about him. He's gone through a really big loss and I just want to make sure that he's fine. Le sad.

By the way I can't wait to never have to see Bryan ever again unless I choice that I want to see him. I am begging to hate all the things that he does. Even his laugh makes me want to punch a computer monitor. Just a few more months...just keep saying it! I must confess that we are going to be on our own soon. Speaking of which I have been slacking on my confessions. I know I said that I was going to put them up everywhere but then school stuff tackled me, which should have been even more reason to do it, and I just put it on the back burner. I will have to remedy that this week.

As for me I am going to bed....Game night should be over soon. (I hope.)

A love song to You...

2008-08-30T22:30:00.000-07:00

My poor Danny. This weekend is certainly taking its tole on him. Emotions are going ramped I'm sure. Monday would be Connor's second birthday. I'm not sure how to help him other then just being there for him, which I guess is all I can really do. We went to a gathering people and drama. I don't like drama and I try to avoid it whenever possible. Obviously I can never completely avoid it but I do my best. Danny and I get home from grocery shopping and we are starting dinner and all of that stuff when he gets a phone call from Chico. He tells Danny that he needs to come pick up Bryan and take him home. Chico lives on the south side of town. We left Bryan there with no car for several reasons. We don't have gas or money for gas right now (next week or two???), he was drinking, he could just get a ride back from Chico when Chico came over for game night. It was planned out. Bryan doesn't abide by the plan. He got drunk and started trying to fight everyone. He pulled a knife on someone. He gets bad. He tells us that he used to be an alcoholic but I'm not so sure that it's entirely in the past. I just keep telling Danny "A few more months...just a few more months and it will just be the two of us."

Side note: I like Chris Tomlin. He has good songs. I should look at getting his cd or something!

Classes started last week. They are alright. So far there is a lot of reading which I would normally be okay with except that my eyes are failing me. I need to stop confessing that. My eyes are healed in Jesus name, I am just waiting for the manifestation of the flesh! Yikes! That's a mouthful...

By the way I am not going to mention that Barry is in town. Yes, I realize the contradiction I just provided you with but that right there is all that you are going to get out of me because he is no longer part of my life. Danny is; and just like Pastor Linda said I have Mr. Wonderful! I am not going to mess that up. She is so funny.

I'm really tired. I want Danny to come home with my car so that I can go to bed. Dinner was yummy even though he didn't get to enjoy it with me.

I'll bring you more than a song...

2008-08-25T12:45:00.000-07:00

These are the notes that I wrote down that I will be speaking on tonight at book club. I am a little bit nervous and a lot bit bummed that I might have to leave early for class. Book club is at 5:30 and class starts at 7:00 so hopefully I will have enough time! *crosses fingers*

The Kingdom of God in You

Chapter Five:

Demonstrating the Kingdom in a Corrupt World

The world's system is failing.
You can't get good fruit from a corrupt tree. If you try to live in the world's system you won't get the same benefits you would living in the Kingdom system. In fact if you live in the world's system you will end up losing more then you gain-the opposite of what God has planned for you. He wants to see us benefit and live rich, happy, healthy lives.
The devil will try to deceive you, he will do all in his power to see to it that you don't get what God has for you. Living in sin, not confessing good, but rather confessing evil or negative thoughts.
- It's okay to have the negative thoughts but you must dismiss them as soon as they enter your head.
- He can't deceive you if you have the Kingdom in you and are living in that system.
God may place you in a secular job knowing that you understand that you don't have to abide by the deceptive system. In fact you can change other's way of thinking by showing them the light of God.
God can not be tempted and He will not tempt you. The devil will try to tempt you like he tried to tempt Jesus in the desert after the fast, but we must be strong in the word of God like He was.
- If Jesus can do it-we can do it! That's why He did these things in the first place. So we that we would know that we can achieve anything through God. Just like when He told the disciples to go out on the boat when a storm was coming to show them that they in fact could calm the wind and the rain. He wants to show that we can do the same things that He could.
- We have the Holy Spirit in us!
- When we are tempted we must not give in to it because when tempted we draw away from God by our lust and we are enticed. Lust leads to sin and sin leads to death.
  - Spiritual death not a physical death
We need to enter out of the world's system and plug into God's system to be a light into the darkness that is the place we reside.
We are delivered from sin, sickness, and oppression in the name of Jesus!
- The devil wants you to believe that you were born “that way” and that you can't change. It's not true. God has great plans for us that don't include sin, sickness or anything that might ail you.
- Jesus came to set us free from all of it. He is here to turn around everything Satan has done and all the evil that he has put in our lives and in our world.
  - It doesn't matter what your sin is or how long you have been in bondage to it- Jesus can set you free from it.
  - Silver and gold have I none; but such as I give I thee: In the same of Jesus Christ of Nazareth rise up and walk. Acts 3:6
When the world's system collapses- and it will happen and soon- God's kingdom will prevail.
- Worry not- we are protected.
God will remember your sins no more-stop reminding Him!
- We are forgiven. God only counts the good now. We shall reign in Heaven and on Earth.
If the government goes against God's government stick with God's government
- Daniel prayed openly to God even though there was a law set against it.
YOU CAN'T SERVE TO MASTERS!!! Pick God's team.

Praise to the King of Kings...

2008-08-24T16:15:00.000-07:00

Why do I even bother? I just spent a lot of time over at my parent's house bleaching and washing the couch cover just to take it home and within 15 minutes Bryan is sitting on it in nothing but his boxers. It makes me so disgusted to have to look at it. When Danny and I watch movies out there I have to put blankets down just so I can stand to sit there. I'd ask Danny to tell him not to sit there without clothes on but it would be futile. Bryan doesn't listen to Danny, he has no respect. He thinks that he is superior to us. What a shame. We will be in our own place soon enough and we won't have to worry about lights being left on, the fridge being left open, food being eaten, kitchen and living room a mess, naked people on the couch--you know, the usual roommate things.

Are you anything like me? Is it possible all anybody needs is a little more love...

2008-08-24T00:34:00.000-07:00

I long for the day when I don't have to hide my food in my room. I had to hide food from my sister and dad at my parent's house, I had to hide food (and toilet paper) at the old house, and now I have to hide my food from Bryan...because he will eat anything that isn't marked with a "K". I know that it sounds easy enough to mark everything "K" but it bugs me and then there would be nothing in the house without a "K". As it stands there are almost no groceries that aren't "K"ed or hidden away in a corner. He doesn't buy groceries. At all. Danny says that it's because he pays half the rent. Good excuse. I can't argue that because I don't contribute much funding. Danny talks about us living on our own as if it were a few months away. Which, with him working two jobs and me trying desperately to find a job that is willing to work around my classes AND church obligations, isn't too far off I suppose. It will be a small place to start off with of course, but it will be our place. Bryan free! I get very excited when I think about it... It's sad but true. It's funny but I think that once we don't live with Bryan the stupid Bryan voice that Danny does sometimes won't bug the living daylights out of me. He does this voice and every time that he does I find it very difficult to control myself, I want to slaughter things, and that's not like me at all. Gah! That man makes me so angry sometimes....

Enough of that angry..and on to another:

I wen to my parent's house to do some laundry because Danny had nothing clean to wear to church. I had planned on doing it after church but with nothing clean to wear I figured that I could just do it a day early. Or so I thought. My sister has got to be one of the most horrible human beings living on God's green earth. She says the most horrible things about me and to me... She told me today that I was brainwashed and that I belonged to a cult. A CULT!!! Can you believe that? I get mad and sad all at the same time. I could have punched her lights out but knowing her she would have called the cops on me and I would have to try to explain how she antagonizes until you feel absolutely helpless, hopeless even. I just kept praying that God would give me serenity and that I wouldn't punch her in the face. She yelled at me and made me feel so unwelcome that I left after one load. I will have to go back there tomorrow while she is at work to finish the rest. Depending on if I wake up in time and if I feel like going over there I might head over and start some before church even. My dad should be back some time tomorrow if nothing else and will tell her to calm down and that I am welcome in my own home any time that I so desire. Danny says that I need to stand up to her. He doesn't understand that I try but I don't know what else to do. He thinks that I should just tell her to piss off. It would be nice but it doesn't work that way. He doesn't have a sibling of the same sex so he doesn't fully get it. I'm sure that he's watched his sisters fight before but I don't know if their fights have ever been to this extreme.

Danny's mom wants to go out to lunch with me, go to a movie and look at rings. Wow. That's crazy.... I remember Barry's family trying to talk me out of dating him, not to mention marring him. It was sick. I'm staying at his aunt's house in CA and she is trying to get me to break up with him. Something not right with that family. Good thing I got out!

Danny's mom still doesn't want to have a church wedding. I think he said that she would go but that she wouldn't participate. At Connor's celebration of life, at a church, she just sat there and left early even. I know that really hurt Danny. I really don't need to deal or worry with her being upset that she's in a church on my wedding day. It's not about her, it's about us. I guess if it will make things easier we will have to find a much better outdoor venue then the one he used last time. Not a chance in hell am I getting married in the same place that he got married already. That would be sick.

I'm going to go pee and then go to bed. I don't really feel like waiting up for Danny anymore. He said soon half an hour ago so soon it shall be... Goodnight.

My life thus far...

By the grace of God...

Le sigh

It's tough waking up.

...and Bingo was his name-o!

Praise be to God!

It's been nice...

Goodies:

Day four:

Day two and three:

Day one:

New idea for the month of March:

My how the time flies...

Another week down.

Lovelies:

Tomorrow...

It's tragic:

Another day...

Oops...

I am a mommy...

Any time now...

Happy New Years!

Recapture 2009

December 31, 2009

December 30, 2009

December 29, 2009

December 28, 2009

December 27, 2009

December 26, 2009

December 25, 2009

December 24, 2009

String of Lights:

December 23, 2009

December 22, 2009

December 21, 2009

December 20, 2009

December 19, 2009

December 18, 2009

December 17, 2009

December 16, 2009

December 15, 2009

December 14, 2009

December 13, 2009

Hallway 4

December 12, 2009

December 11, 2009

December 9, 2009 + December 10, 2009

December 8, 2009

December 7, 2009

December 6, 2009

December 4, 2009

December 3, 2009

December 2, 2009

Feeling lonely:

December 1, 2009

Our close call:

Don't pretend you ever forgot about me.

One year.

Blessing.

My husband...

On my mark, get set, BLOG!

Nutrition

The baby:

We keep waiting on the world to change:

It's a human:

Happy birthday to me!

It's been a while...

Mmm...butter noodles!

Yay!!!

Married life:

Merry Christmas!

Comfort and joy...

Beautitful One I love, beautiful One I adore...

Three years...

*smiles*

I'm amazed by you...

This imfamous day in history....

Give me your eyes so I can see.

I'm not sure what I'm doing:

You captured my heart with this love, because nothing on earth is as beautiful as You.

smiles